Friday, September 20, 2013

The Walking Dead

So, here is the finished pendant for the TV Show,The Walking Dead! This picture doesn't show the leather cord. But, when I add it to my website, I will have more pictures! I made it using polymer clay, paint, shell casing and glass dragons eye! Thanks to Black Diamond!

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

People may not approve of you.

People may not approve of you. Don't worry about it. God approves of you. People don't determine your destiny. People can't stop God's plan for your life. God called you. God equipped you. God anointed you. - Joel Osteen Ministries
My birth mother who should have empowered my life with dreams of success but instead tried all she could to destroy what was good, then she recruited her other daughter to do her  dirting work for her, then she pretends she don't know what is going on, poor mommy dearest always the victim But, guess what I am still here. You no longer have any power over me, you no longer will haunt my days and nights, you will no longer be able to hurt me anymore than you have already done. I am not protecting you, I am instead exposing you for who you are. Sharing my truth and the journey to take back control of my life. You have condemned me, condemned my children, abandoned us and shunned us. 
1.Everything she does is deniable. There is always a facile excuse or an explanation. Cruelties are couched in loving terms. Aggressive and hostile acts are paraded as thoughtfulness. Selfish manipulations are presented as gifts. Criticism and slander is slyly disguised as concern. She only wants what is best for you. She only wants to help you.

2.She favoritizes. Narcissistic mothers commonly choose one (sometimes more) child to be the golden child and one (sometimes more) to be the scapegoat. The narcissist identifies with the golden child and provides privileges to him or her as long as the golden child does just as she wants. The golden child has to be cared for assiduously by everyone in the family. The scapegoat has no needs and instead gets to do the caring. The golden child can do nothing wrong. The scapegoat is always at fault. This creates divisions between the children, one of whom has a large investment in the mother being wise and wonderful, and the other(s) who hate her. That division will be fostered by the narcissist with lies and with blatantly unfair and favoritizing behavior. The golden child will defend the mother and indirectly perpetuate the abuse by finding reasons to blame the scapegoat for the mother’s actions. The golden child may also directly take on the narcissistic mother’s tasks by physically abusing the scapegoat so the narcissistic mother doesn’t have to do that herself. 
3.She undermines.  Your accomplishments are acknowledged only to the extent that she can take credit for them.
4.  She’s a liar in too many ways to count. Any time she talks about something that has emotional significance for her, it’s a fair bet that she’s lying. Lying is one way that she creates conflict in the relationships and lives of those around her - she’ll lie to them about what other people have said, what they’ve done, or how they feel. She’ll lie about her relationship with them, about your behavior or about your situation in order to inflate herself and to undermine your credibility.

5.She projects. This sounds a little like psycho-babble, but it is something that narcissists all do. Projection means that she will put her own bad behavior, character and traits on you so she can deny them in herself and punish you. 

6.She blames. She’ll blame you for everything that isn’t right in her life or for what other people do or for whatever has happened. Always, she’ll blame you for her abuse. You made her do it. If only you weren’t so difficult. You upset her so much that she can’t think straight. Things were hard for her and your backtalk pushed her over the brink.  

7.  She destroys your relationships. Narcissistic mothers are like tornadoes: wherever they touch down families are torn apart and wounds are inflicted. Unless the father has control over the narcissist and holds the family together, adult siblings in families with narcissistic mothers characteristically have painful relationships. Typically all communication between siblings is superficial and driven by duty, or they may never talk to each other at all. In part, these women foster dissension between their children because they enjoy the control it gives them. If those children don’t communicate except through the mother, she can decide what everyone hears. Narcissists also love the excitement and drama they create by interfering in their children’s lives. Watching people’s lives explode is better than soap operas, especially when you don’t have any empathy for their misery.

The end result is a family in which almost all communication is triangular. The narcissist, the spider in the middle of the family web, sensitively monitors all the children for information she can use to retain her unchallenged control over the family. She then passes that on to the others, creating the resentments that prevent them from communicating directly and freely with each other. The result is that the only communication between the children is through the narcissist, exactly the way she wants it.

8. As a last resort she goes pathetic. When she’s confronted with unavoidable consequences for her own bad behavior, including your anger, she will melt into a soggy puddle of weepy helplessness. It’s all her fault. She can’t do anything right. She feels so bad. What she doesn’t do: own the responsibility for her bad conduct and make it right. Instead, as always, it’s all about her, and her helpless self-pitying weepiness dumps the responsibility for her consequences AND for her unhappiness about it on you. As so often with narcissists, it is also a manipulative behavior. If you fail to excuse her bad behavior and make her feel better, YOU are the bad person for being cold, heartless and unfeeling when your poor mother feels so awful. hapyschild

Sunday, September 15, 2013

“Everyone” says that the problem is me. How can they all be wrong?

People have their own reasons for insisting that it is ‘you.’ Most often, the biggest reason is about them not wanting to see the truth in their own lives with their own dysfunctional relationships. It is easier to keep the victim down than it is to look at the truth, especially if that truth affects them too. Being raised to believe ‘the problem is you’ is a very difficult belief system to undo and replace. Victims of dysfunctional relationship very
often become addicted to proof: if they can’t prove they are ‘right’ about their own grievances, then they must not be right. But even the belief that we have to ‘prove it’ comes from dysfunction in the belief system and has its roots somewhere.
As for abusers, they will never look at the possibility that it might be them. Abusive and controlling people never question themselves. They are very sure that it isn’t them. Emerging From Broken

No longer worry if the truth hurts someone elses feelings.

"I no longer worry if the truth hurts someone elses feelings. When I decided to heal and move forward with my life, I had to stop taking care of other people’s feelings and finally validate my feelings. When I finally put my own healing first, I began to see the dysfunction more clearly. The people I was trying not to "hurt" were the ones that hurt me. I finally saw that I was contributing to the sick dysfunctional cycle by going along with it.” Darlene Ouimet   Emerging From Broken

Tuesday, September 10, 2013